Parents abuses

So anyone ever feels like being bullied from parents? So I've suffered because of my parents for long times. They ripped off my self-esteem a lots. They don't trust my abilities, never. If I intend to do something, they won't cheers me nor believe that I can succeed it. If I'm failed it they'll insulted me, and if I'm succeed they'll says things like 'Oh well, We think you couldn't succeed it.' or so, no praised. And when I didn't succeeded in what they want, they immediately assumed that I'm stupid or something, even though I'm good at other things. Also They always says that I can't live or stand on my own. But the truth is I can, But without them they won't lets me choose my own choices. I'm living with them, but we're rarely talking, I tried to avoid them as possible because everytimes we talked they'll start mentioned about my study, future or so. And we'll ended up with a fight. Huhh I don't know what I should do next. Hmmmm (；・∀・)

I don't know them so I couldn't say for sure, but it sounds like maybe they are just upset at their own failures and just take it out on you, but there could be other reasons. Maybe they want you to do certain things to compensate for what they wanted to do. But you have to live how you want and not how they want. If they can't deal with your feelings and desires in a healthy way without putting you down than maybe you should look at ways you can eventually move out and do things on your own.

I'm planning on moving out when graduated tho. But it's like they won't leave me alone because I'm the only child that living with them now, all of my brothers refused to moving in with them because they've had enough of theis shits. One of my brother even got OCD.

I don't know if they really have a good will for me. But all of these are wrong. And I'm suffered very much. I hate my culture that the youngs must obey the olders. Whenever I try to told them about this they won't listen. So I'm reached the point that I'm almost don't care about them anymore.

If you want to move, you should be consider looking a job. For beginners, on having your own place. Your best option is to rent an apartment. So, you need to save money for a while to cover a few months. ^u^

Also, there are two types of parent abuse. Mental or physical. I think you might be having mental abuse. :/ However, I study Asian culture on TheGreatWall from YouTube. It's sounds like you have the strict parents. ;:3

I still have to relying on them on my college pays. Ugh I couldn't get a part-time job because I've class esfive days a week and straight from morning to afternoon. Nah it's like children's succees are accessories for them here. Parents like to show off their childs to another. I got comparing with others kids a lot. There go again, my self-esteem.

Just believe what you believe then all you have to do is do what you wanna do. It is your life :) You can do anything you want.