What to do when you're anxious and depressed?

D:< Ugh, I really need to get rid of this anxiousness I have x.x Everyday I wake up I think of something important or my ex and my freaking heart starts beating fast and I get these retarded waves of anxiousness going through my body (I can get those waves any time of the day, as soon as I actually start to think about my future and my ex.) I've had this for a long time and I can't seem to get rid of it.. Pls halp. I get really restless and I can't seem to 'chill' anymore. (Living life is not for me anymore, it's surviving for me these days.. :/) I know I need help, but I don't think help from a professional will truly help me because of personal reasons. What should I do..?

I can't really give my suggestion without treating this as a confession of sorts but anyway... I have dealt with high anxiety through my life. Not necessarily finding myself in too many exciting situations but it always seemed like I couldn't calm down, relax, mind was always firing on all cylinders to the point I couldn't sleep normally. After a while it starts to wear on you and can cause random bouts of depression. I have been given various antidepressants over the years and have been given Xanex. I think the next step would have been a small dose of Valium lol but it never made it that far. Xanex did nothing for me. The antidepressants I had at that time worked but I lost too much of myself taking them. While they no longer made me depressed and it helped me get rid of the lows, I also lost the highs and joy in life. I was just a breathing, emotionless thing. Then you get the typical exercise regularly, meditate!!! The natural homeopathic suggestions. If someone told me to meditate one more time I was going to hit them with a yoga mat. Asking a person with anxiety to really give meditation a go is like asking someone with one leg to jump hurdles. Fast forward a few years, I finally found a regular doctor who decided to treat the anxiety and leave the depression as an after thought. My dr hypothesized the anxiety I felt triggered my depression and fed off it. So I was prescribed another antidepressant. I was confused because my doc just said we were treating the anxiety not depression- so they explained one of the off label uses of this drug in particular is to treat anxiety. Another handy off label use is that it treats people with obsessive compulsive disorders ---which I also have. Anyway, I'm not typically one to push drugs on people but having lived with anxiety since my cognitive abilities developed (as long as I an remember) it really is the only thing that has helped me. "Citalopram is frequently used off-label to treat anxiety, panic disorder, dysthymia[11] premenstrual dysphoric disorder, body dysmorphic disorder and obsessive–compulsive disorder.[12] It has been shown to be effective in 85% of patients with generalized anxiety disorder."

From personal experience things like this are hard to deal with on your own. You could go and talk to a doctor and get some advice. There is lots on offer to help such as support groups, counselling and medication. I have had depression and anxiety issues for a while now and I'm still trying to find some balance and normality. It can be real trial and error but knowing there are others that suffer too and don't judge is reassuring. If you need any advice just ask. Honestly you are not alone :-)

Hey, thanks for the advice everyone. Tbh, I don't really know what to do since my parents don't know any of this. They both suffer from personality/depression disorders but I'm not sure if they'll understand since they'll just tell me I'm overreacting and whining too much I guess. xD But yeah, I've had this for quite a while so I'm sure I'm not just 'overreacting.' Though I'm scared to look for help right now. ;-; Since I'm pretty young, people will probably not take me seriously. I talk about this with my friend a lot though, and he understands. I only talk to a few people about this but never has it gotten any less or anything. x.x I'm still not so sure what to do. I could get some medication but I'm too young to get it, plus it has to go through the doc, doesn't it?

Consider this; if you were hanging off a ledge and couldn't get up on your own, would you call for help? Of course no matter the answer you give, which I hope is that you would and not let go; is only but an example or reference for what depression is truly like. Depression isn't some made up thing that gives someone a ticket to whine about stuff; it is a very very dangerous ailment that takes more lives then it needs to. The only reason it takes lives is because those who suffer from it are reluctant to get help. So it's as if that person hanging from te cliff just kept trying to lift themselves, until they didn't want to struggle and just let go. There is no weakness in asking for help. You may need help today, and that's perfectly okay; and I or many others will gladly help you while you're feeling down. There's one thing for sure though. If you have no body else to talk to, you have me. The best way to heal any emotional illness is with a kind heart and an open ear. Our emotions are much more powerful than some people believe, and they can also be just as dangerous as the physical world around us. Many people don't ever get a chance to vent their feelings, and they slowly begin to accept that they suffer in silence. You have a right to the pursuit of happiness and the fulfillment of what you want in life, and I won't let that disappear just because you're having a rough time and no one is helping you. So if you need to talk, I'm right here. But no matter what you do, always remember to stay strong. And that allies, reinforcement, assistance, help, these are not weaknesses. We can all be fairly strong alone; but we'll all be stronger unified together.

I totally agree with what you just said, asking for help isn't a weakness at all, and to be honest, I'm not afraid to ask for help, it just really depends on the person. I wouldn't like asking a stranger for help because I'd feel very uncomfortable, and I've heard many times that docs and other professionals aren't really that trustworthy anymore these days. I'm content with just having help from my friends, there's even this guy who walks me outta the school and waits for my dad to arrive to pick me up. But he's the only one. I don't like depending on people that much, it makes me feel pretty guilty, but truly, I appreciate it. But of course, he can't help me with everything, since he doesn't posses any magic to magically make me feel better and at ease. I've just been feeling like I'm stuck these days, I lack a lot of motivation to do things such as going outside, play games or even get out of my bed. I'm not COMPLETELY restless though. I can sleep well at night. But the anxiety inside me will surely act up again once I'd wake up. It made me stay home from interning/school a lot. And the kids at school don't really help either, because most of them only just bring me down while I haven't done anything wrong. (They're all fake people so it doesn't really get to me that much.) So yeaaahh.. There isn't any place on the earth where I can find peace atm..

In which case, I'm glad that you understand what I said; and again I'm here to talk to you. As for your description of a rut, before I make a comment, I would like to ask a question so I can make an educated comment~ if you could, list everything that happens daily or often enough to be reoccurring, that you like in a normal day. For example, I like the feeling of stretching in the morning, and then I like the smell of breakfast~ list as many as you want or as little as you want, but always be honest

When you go to the doctor does your mom/dad go back with you to be examined? If you don't want them to know see if you can't go back by yourself. With your age it may trigger alarms, they may think you want to ask about birth control- which depending on your parents may work in your favor. Sometimes parents don't want to be there for that talk with the doc and sometimes they do. You can always ask a nurse or slip them a note for them to intervene and ask the parent to wait in the lobby. If they are good at their job, they will do their best to accommodate you. We've all been teenagers and know if you need to talk to a nurse or doctor without a parent present there's probably a good reason.

Just to add though^ it doesn't help talking to your parent about this. It just depends. My family was of the SUCK IT UP variety so at about 14-15 I started going to the doctor on my own. The regulations on those things were a bit looser then though.

Like huuh? Hmmm. I like waking up in my warm, comfy bed and be greated by my cats who usually sleep on top of me xD Well one of them. I like how I can play games with my friend all day if I wanna.. Hmmm.. I like how whenever I get home the fridge is filled with yummy goodness. /o/ (Sandwich ingredients, pudding, desserts, chocolate milk, etc.) hmmm, I like looking for stuff on the interwebs such as anime pics, vids and cosplay shizzle. Well, that's it actually. XD It's not that much really, since everyday is the same for me. At weekends/holidays, wake up> get on my phone> go downstairs to make myself some breakfast and watch tv > wait for my friend to get on> play games > eat dinner> take my lenses out> gaming/watching/reading fluffy stuff> sleep. And my weekdays are the same, but with school/interning included. Sometimes I go to shop with mom and do some other random stuffs.