Well that's life sometimes :p it's been a couple of years now so I'm more than over it. Still, it's part of my history and that experience shaped me quite a lot.
I had my first kiss until I was 19y/o (in 2012) with my first (and only so far) ever girlfriend. I was very scared because she had way more experience than me and she was kinda pressuring me to kiss her, and I was like... sure, I'll kiss you next time we meet! The day came and I thought about it all day.. "what if I screw up?" "what if she hates my kiss?" so i was hella nervous. So, after class at night, we met at an alley where she always waited for her mom... and I hugged her and we stared at each other for a while (might have been seconds, but it felt like an eternity to me) and.. there I approached to her and finally did it. She used TONGUE so I was like "IS THIS FUCKING NORMAL?!?!?!" but I let myself with the flow and it was an overall good experience.
She turned into my first gf short after, then she cheated on me with 5 guys on a period of a couple of years, tried to commit suicide, I LITERALLY saved her, we were happy again, she cheated again, bye. It lasted over 3 and a half years.
I was very scared because she had way more experience than me and she was kinda pressuring me to kiss her, and I was like... sure, I'll kiss you next time we meet!
The day came and I thought about it all day.. "what if I screw up?" "what if she hates my kiss?" so i was hella nervous.
So, after class at night, we met at an alley where she always waited for her mom... and I hugged her and we stared at each other for a while (might have been seconds, but it felt like an eternity to me) and.. there I approached to her and finally did it. She used TONGUE so I was like "IS THIS FUCKING NORMAL?!?!?!" but I let myself with the flow and it was an overall good experience.
She turned into my first gf short after, then she cheated on me with 5 guys on a period of a couple of years, tried to commit suicide, I LITERALLY saved her, we were happy again, she cheated again, bye. It lasted over 3 and a half years.