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To me a good life does not mean it has to be a happy one. Happiness is not a goal nor desire of mine anymore. I was once into heavy drugs and living became painful. So one day I just went for a walk, I like flowers so sometimes I just walk through parks to see if I can find one to cheer things up. I found the perfect flower and gave it to this lil girl who was crying and she smiled at me and told me even when the sun goes down it always ignites again. So ever since that day I have been sober and I live to put out the bad fires and start the good ones. To me, I don't care if I am a ghost who is tormented every day and lives in hell. So long as others do not have to, thats my reason for living so others don't have to endure the way I always have. ^_^ I of course will keep in touch. I don't often socialize, I prefer to listen, however my words are available for any who seek them. I need to take a nap before I spend 12 hours going on medical calls. Dream well.

Aww, well I hope it does anyways! You certainly deserve to have a good life! You'll be helping so many people! That's really admirable! I wish I could focus more like you! Hopefully not total isolation though! Cause I like talking to you! I am certainly glad you are still here! :)

In the end it doesn't matter if it works out for me. :p There is a reason I live in isolation and can be selfless lil darling. Its because without this reason, I would have died many years ago. ^_^ So its easy for me to live for my convictions.

Yeah, I sorta hate money, but at the same time crave it. What ya gonna do! Aww, that's sweet! So selfless of you! I don't think I could ever do that! I hope it all works out for you! :)

Hm.. Money has no value. Food, shelter, morals. However in this world to build a good base money is needed as trade. In time I will take the pay cut, not to do what I enjoy, but so I can make it so others may enjoy themselves for a bit longer in this world. I never went into this field for enjoyment. ^_^

That's true! I gotta figure out the difference haha. Oh, cool! I didn't even know that was something you can study, but that's awesome! We need people like you! Ah, yeah the paycut could be rough. But in the end you should do what you think you'll enjoy the most, but maybe you can't afford the paycut right now. Motorcycle, huh? Cool! That's a good attitude :) Lol, yeah. I've hardly seen anything! But you know as a a kid I liked Pokemon, Spirited Away, Sailor Moon, Avatar, all that sort of stuff. Haha well here's me being a nerd with my list http://myanimelist.net/animelist/MioMidori but I never finish anything. Ever. I'm truly a slacker haha. I just can't focus long enough to watch a bunch. That's still pretty good! I maybe only watch a few episodes a month T_T hoping once AP exams and such are over I'll have more time. Oh, okay! Yeah, I'm sure you have a lot of great ones there! Thanks :)

Oh, okay. You can keep track of what you watch, there's some forums, sorta like here too. That's probably true! I need to work on the responding part more haha. It is, gotta drill that into my head. Wow, you must keep really busy! I don't know how I'd be able to do that all! So it said you want to be a fire investigator, so what are you studying right now? Must be exciting!

Oh, okay! Yeah it's sorta hard to meet many serious people on sites like this, although I did meet my boyfriend on here haha. Have you checked out the site myanimelist.net ? that's a pretty cool site. I'm glad to hear you say that! I feel like it might get a better as you get older, but I've also heard people say it gets worse. I'm a bit more accepting of myself now, but it'll always be a struggle. That's good though :) Always wonderful to hear people enjoying life! How are you doing tonight?

Hey! :) Saw that you're a fellow Minnesotan so thought I'd say hello! You sound like a really cool guy, hope you can maybe meet some good people on the site!