delete_me

i honestly been through alot this year and realized the man i loved wasnt really how i thought he was, as fun as we had it i reaalize sadly the bad outweigh the good and honestly i just wanna get help to understand his narcisistic ass and move on. i am not jumping into a new relationship although im fine with flirting im gonna be starting back on college soon and wanna really go back to focussing on my own future and dreams instead of someone elses and heal before i jump into romance. yes ill miss him and his little guy but ill only miss who i fell in love with not who i broke up with. i genuinly hope he will understand his problem get help change and find happiness. but i tried so much to help change him if that wasnt enough then its not up to me or anyone but for him to make that change. i forgive him but im allowed to be hurt. anyway im gonna have a nice day u have one too <3

Sometimes it hurts to lose someone bad even if u loved them, i dodged a big bullet. just wished they got the help they needed and listened to me but sadly theyre ego was too fragile for that lol. i have met someone else who is very nice and patient and very handsome and kind he is the bestest friend i could ever ask for, im going to college, hitting the gym, im making friends, im going out, im doing my hobbys again, i do what i want, i wear what i want and nobody here to make my night shitty or to try and control me anymore. im glad im finnaly feeling free, even though this hurts i dont want to see him again. i hope he finds a wife in america and gets a good life as im not one to wish death upon someone i may have said so in the past but thats genuinly out of anger cuz even if i hate certain people, or heck they might even wish me dead i wouldnt wish them dead, karma is to come upon them and im okay with that. im living my life and im making the best of it