Popcorn245

I was locked up a couple times when I tried to end it as a teen. Mental health is difficult. I would never end my life now but the main thing that keeps me from it is just knowing it would hurt loved ones... not because I actually stopped wanting a way out. I thank you for being in such a difficult industry. I can imagine you have to have a mind of steel (my therapist actually cried when I told her about my childhood and early teens even though she read my file beforehand already. My telling it in a monotone voice and joking about it likely did not help) to work with nut jobs like me, hah. Thank you.

I could benefit from learning how to calm my mind. It would help alot actually. I overthink and panic when something doesn't go my way or I'm hurt instead of thinking first on it. Could be from growing up in a household full of people who emotionally blow up when hurt so that's all I've known. I try my best and I never seem to be able to acheive that inner peace. I talk a big game but at the end of the day I'm a joke people laugh at.

Innocence (Ignorance.) vs knowledge (Experience .) vs wisdom (Realization.). So much easier said than done. I only wonder how one is to achieve calm in the midst of a storm? Those claps of thunder make it AWFULLY hard to hear the silence. How does one calm or better yet, depart from the ego?