koude

Just spillin my thoughts But heres a huge confession. There were a ton of ppl who confessed to me telling me they like me. A lot of those times I gave them false hope telling them Let me think about it or You know I used to like you at a point. I know huge dick move, oh my im such a shitty person i know. Well imma be real with myself... I don't know why at the time I did that, but in the back of my head I knew I just liked the feeling that someone actually liked me. But heres the other thing, For a fact, They didn't like me because of me. They Liked me because I was "Cute/Hot" so the words that spilled out their mouths when I asked why they liked me and they would add the word "Chill" too cause i'm a very laid back person. I hated the fact that, that was all they could come up with on the spot. Honestly, to say again we didn't even talk on a daily basis or talk enough to know whats their favorite color. Most would probably be flattered to be complimented, but i hear it so often that I despise it. I may sound conceited asf but you can only hear it so much til its bores you. Yes, I Played with their feelings. Yes, I gave them false hope. Yes, I enjoyed having them at hands grasp. Yes, I knew how they saw me and took advantage of it. Do I Hate myself for doing such a terrible deed? Yes. I knew it was wrong but I still did it. I Loved the feeling that they were being played along the tip of my fingers like puppets. There was more than one person to that I did this. Every time They would flirt with me I flirted back knowing it would get their heart racing, or i would wrap my arms around them from behind. They would send me kinky messages and I wouldn't bat an eye, My heart didn't race nor did I actually wanna engage, but I would send them back another message with the intent of heightening their arousal. I am terrible and twisted ASF. What if someone you liked did this to you? you may ask. Well if it was tossed back to me... Karma am i right? I deserve it, I know it. I have no shame and I admit it. Just letting you know I don't do this anymore though lol this was just a confession of shitty things ive done in the past. I was young (I'm still young but "young" adult now) I didn't know how relationships work (Never been in one even now but i have a better understanding now). I never received any attention from the opposite gender till my "Glow up" and suddenly people were confessing left and right. But Now Im just satisfied with myself, Dealing with people have become a hassle. Everyone has moved on and living happily. Just needed to get this off my chest cause I couldn't tell anyone in my friend group loool

Someone whos open minded to do kinky things. jk. Maybe.Not. Lol Someone who can be decisive and step on me.