Confessions

Actually she was going to be my wife lol. We didn't get engaged but we both "knew" we wanted to and were going to. I am improving. Alot of people think I'm fine too lol. I'm still just improving in some areas.

K...I had a hopeful possible, didn't get engaged or make a promise, wife, too. Guess what? Life moved on. You're not the first, you're not alone, but you are saying things here that can only lead one to think you're not thinking straight. Clearly you still have a bit to process and giving up on caring is not the path you want to take. Want pity? All out of that.

^Bruh he aint even the first one on here that she "wanted to marry" *cough cough* There will come a day when he actually deserves pity again but on that day he actually won't need it because on such a day he will be strong enough (even if barely) to handle his shit himself

I sometimes feel like Max said a few pages back (about not feeling complete without someone to love - or something to that effect) ... and then I remember what its like to be in a shitty relationship and I get over it (mostly?)

Shitty relationshipso are NEVER to be envied. I'd much rather live the life of a hermit than to subject myself to the asinine bull shit that I did before. Nothing like always having your stomach in knots, being anxious or having argument after argument over every stupid thing...or being cheated on and trying to salvage a sinking ship.

Yeah I know that feel asshat... I never said to envy a shitty relationship.... but that being single beats a shitty relationship