Confessions

I confess that I'm not sure why I'm wanting to constantly test and push away this girl. I don't know if it's because I flat-out don't trust her because of lack of evidence of the things that she says and how she said herself that she doesn't understand people's emotions very well and wishes she was a cat instead or because I'm afraid to trust her and afraid of the possibility of becoming closer than I realized it's someone again only to possibly be betrayed and have things not work out again.