Confessions

is it weird that i collect my cats shed fur after i brush him and make it into a ball? thats not weird right? why would it be weirD? its soft

A certain memory sticks in my mind since few days - it happens for over 5 years ago. I had a very good friend where I was very close with. We hang out in each moment; was it playing games together, cooking, going out to events and disco, shopping or grapping an ice cream. He was someone who had a strong mind and a bunch of friends. Someday, he lost his job and met a person who forced him into a pyramid/multilevel selling system (the "company" calls Amway). One day he calls me for an invite, but with no information. He told me that he started a "project" with a group of people who wanted to "become a better person" and "makes the world clear". I was suspecious what's wents on and followed the invite. You can imagine the party like a Tupperware party, just with cleaning products. Doing the introduce the products I was still suspicious. Later, the host wanted that I sign a document and listening to "coach CDs" by their Guru to get "clear" - I denied and just wanted to leave that place. Btw, that was my first time where I get in touched with MBTI. Since then I have a strong aversion to it. After that I told my friend my concerns against that kind of strategies and that I was in worry about him. He just replied that I shouldn't be worry about him and gave me a big hug. Days later, the contact with him broke up. Even his friends and family had no further contact to him. I tried to reach him with calls, knocking on his door.. without any results. The day where he hugged me was the last time what I heard of him. He disappeared. I lost him. I'm thinking: on that day where we was on the party - did I just grab his hand and run away with him?

trying to catch up on tokyo ghoul is REALLY hard when things keep getting in your eyes http://49.media.tumblr.com/48bdc1aebf0531598b4cd51be7701a45/tumblr_o349ccKT9C1slmfozo1_540.gif