Confessions

I confess that I was in a great mood all week pretty much but ironically woke up feeling miserable on my birthday of all days. Go away, lonely feels. :v

i hate everything and want to die https://media1.tenor.com/images/0f6168404d57e722b931c39d21e04c37/tenor.gif?itemid=4947346

I honestly feel more and more that the years go by, the more I begin to realize there's nothing for me. It doesn't matter how much I continue to fight what I want, nor how much of it I work for, it all crashes down the more I build it up. Be it a successful job, a means to see the world, a damn girlfriend, nothing come to fruition no matter the amount of time and effort. There are nights I just want to be asleep, and never want to wake up. Where I feel a little more colder each day. Where my heart just starts to form stone around itself. I've loved so much, and did so much for myself, as well as others. And where does that get me? Jack and shit. And frankly, it's beginning to sicken me, make me bitter, more cynical, and just flat out not want to care anymore. Yet here I am. Still doing it. Still trying to fight and see some kind of payoff. Christ, I want this nightmare to be over.

My guild in wow gambles between pulls in raid and I just won 4 games in a row totalling over 60k gold. I just had to tell someone because it was so funny.

I don't understand all these new "de wae" memes, but at least they caused me to stumble upon this song while doing youtube searches http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2m9Woo6UwoI