Confessions

I confess that there's two events I want to go to at college but I probably won't go because I'm scared to go alone ;-;

I confess that college events here are shit so I'd rather risk my life on September 1st here when the population scheduled a massive protest that'll take over Caracas because of the dictatorship so I confess I'll be probably reporting in two days how many people die and how caothic the view is from my building lmao.

Don't worry, I also confess that if I assist that protest I'll probably have problems on getting documents such as VISA or citizenships in the future. I'll assist them in my room with some popcorn and watching them via the TV.

I confess I wish I was more of my old self than my "new and improved" self. I'm far too nice nowadays and I'll let people walk all over me in ways they shouldn't and I never would have in the past. I used to be the guy that if you hurt me you were going to have a scar to match - now apparently you hurt me and I'll give you a big break and help you out of a jam and try to make you a better person (in my own way) without even needing an apology for it or anything in return. Some might call this "personal growth" and I sort of see it that way sometimes but damn even for me its exhausting to be that kind of strong where I can absorb my problems and other peoples' at the same time. Makes me feel foolhardy and weak instead of strong sometimes. I've gone back and forth on this with no mental consensus.

I confess that when i decide to "eat clean" i can do it for about 2 weeks -a month with 1 cheat day a week but then the urge of needing chocolate bars consumes me and i can't control it. And right now i need a freaking milky way!!! I need it dammit!! >.<