Confessions

My confession is that it slightly annoys me when people use values over 100% , even when I realize they don't mean it literally "give it 110%" ... no >.< No offence meant to anyone

@mango no don't worry I get that, its my own little issue to deal with, never apologies for you just being you that's what makes you special, your you-ness

Live for someone else. Live for a cause. Live to prove yourself. There are so many other reasons to live than just happiness. Sure it's a probably one of the bigger ones, but it isn't the ONLY one. Make your enemies tremble. I don't know.

Because you can't see it right now but your best days are still ahead of you, even if you are in a bad place right now and you can not see any possible way out there will come a day when you have the realization that life is worth living and you will reach a point in your life when you will look back and think about how fooling it was to have thoughts like the ones you're having now, life is full of ups and downs, its kind of like a roller coaster and when it goes down it can go fast and scary and before you know it you've hit bottom but then it will start to climb again, and the climb takes a long time but its worth it in the end

I confess that this has been my train of thought for the last hour or so: "Jesus, this was the most horrible day I've lived through in ages and I just want to talk to somebody about it. Maybe I'll post something on the forums about it just to vent." "Everybody else has their own problems you selfish piece of $@#%! All you want is attention! How dare you!" "You know you're no good to anybody if you don't talk these things out. You'll just bottle it up and then be even worse off. Stop beating yourself up so much and just let people in." "Yeah, but..." Then my brain got caught in an infinite feedback loop and I decided I had to do something to break the cycle. My mind's kind of like this right now: http://25.media.tumblr.com/f2002c5ec23b8449098c980d7ed82c35/tumblr_mf6pn5usPx1r11qslo1_500.gif So how's everyone else? Good? (^O^;)

I see everyone being emotional and I feel kinda fucked up that I don't really feel anything about it. Like I want to feel bad. I get that it upsets you guys and for good reason but even though I care I'm not "sad" that others are sad. My confession I guess is that I don't feel anything most of the time. Not happy not sad not even there. Like I'm just blankly watching my body "live" and occasionally adding input. I dunno, there is no way to say this without sounding like a piece of shit. But I do hope you guys that are upset do get better and live happier. ^^