Heartbreak and Dismay

I dunno... but if there's one thing I've learned in life and it is that there is no such thing as "fair" or "deserve". I kinda believe what the Joker (Heath Ledger) said about fairness. He believes in chaos because it's fair and indiscriminate. That reflects my life to the T.

I'll share, with my previous relationship. So I dated a girl whom I used to work with. In the beginning it was nice, lots of flirting which eventually ended up with me asking her out. I was very content. So then about the months go by and she slowly stops interacting with me at work. Like not even just casual talking, at all. She was gonna be hosting a video game party for all of our other co-workers, and that's when I decided to talk to her. It was a bit of bad timing to talk to her, but I didn't want to delay it. While I was talking to her, it really looked like she wasn't paying attention or didn't care. Didn't make eye contact with me, said she doesn't really make eye contact when she has talks with people. Right, and I askef her if anything was up with me, but she didn't say anything. So I thought we had an understanding, but come the party, she didn't say a single thing to me that night or just made it seem like I wasn't there. Woke up the next morning in her house cause I has been drinking that night. One of co-workers, Daniel who happens to be gay, decided to sleep in her room. I heard then talking and laughing that morning, and after he had left, when I wanted to talk to her, she didn't wanna say a single thing to me. Dating oh I have a headache and I really don't wanna talk. Even after all that commotion coming from her room that morning. I was pretty done, but after I had left and got to my house, she decided to talk to me over text and not face to face. I forgot to mention on that same night, she started flirting with another guy who I call a former friend. Just ended it after all those texts, I couldn't put up with anymore of her hypocrisies and bull shit. She's started dating that other bastard while I sill worked with them, but I'm glad I don't work in the same place with them anymore. I can say I really did like her, but I saw her true colors.

Lesson learned, good sir. I also did gain some knowledge from it as well, so now I'll know what to look out for in future relationships.

I went out with this guy right, he was normal for a while, But then he started hanging out with the popular kids whose heads are shoved up their ass! We got into a fight since he thought I was cheating (which I was not) so I ended it. Then!! To get back at me he spread rumors!! Saying I was lesbian and people actually believed them! He and literally all the guys in most of my classes called me ugly and talked about me as if I was a disease I was called an IT! It was really all his fault. Then!!! He had the nerve to ask me out again!! 2 times!!! I wasn't so much heart broken, but it ,Ade me cry a lot and it's a main reason why I'm so insecure XP I dunno of that counts