Nat's random thoughts

You and I haven't spoken much over the years we've crossed paths on this site. However I have for a long time wished to convey gratitude towards the few times you stepped up to sincerely provide wisdom and encouragement when I have asked for it in the past. The words of advice that were given to me from your own heart meant a great deal though it may have at the time seemed not much. They gave me strength when I needed them most and with your kindness kept myself from going under. I mean to say, never doubt that people can be helped with your simplest sincerity. It breaks my heart to know that people directly in your life have let you down. That it's been a constant struggle to keep going on when all you're attempting to do is connect genuinely. When it doesn't work out and your surrounded by others who clearly have severe issues of their own it's easy to resent everyone in the world starting with ourselves. Nat, you deserve better. Easy to say, right? Doesn't change the fact everyday in your life appears to stay exactly the same. Painfully melancholy. I can't and won't change your point of view with a single word I typed. That wasn't my intention in the first place. I came here to say thank you for briefly taking a chance to listen to me ramble meaningless words into the empty void of your decaying world. I owed you a debt of gratitude for bestowing upon me a seed of hope. One I did not earn, but you, Nat, gave freely. Know there are those that hope desperately for your own successful recovery from the pain you're in. It means more than words can express. Please be loved in the purest, non-perverted sense of the word. Not for any God, social expectation, me or any other person, but you! You will always matter to you! That means the world to me. Thank you, Nat! Have the Happiest New Year of anyone on planet Earth!