curse and a blessing

my kind nature has made me some what cynical but i do my best maintain a positive outlook, no matter how hard people to ruin that too

Ahh i see that fire i have a side of me that does that too i see how bad others around me are sometimes but i hate to judge i only like to help in the end and this also messes with me finding somebody for example if i and somebody else see a girl and she likes both of us and hes my friend I will do the right thing and step away most likely which effects me finding somebody in the end

i'm also pretty Leary of people in general (i think they call it paranoia), my job forces me to deal with of people who could care less and that becomes stressful when you have to try to help someone who just simply doesn't want it (and this at a Quick Oil change) :)

I am too my kindness prevents me from acting out though i know you can call it horrible but my role model is naruto and always has been he shares pain that i do in many similar ways but always strives to help others and prove to everybody he isnt a failure he always has been my role model and that is another reason which i like naruto myself

I know where you're coming from on the helping people bit. I often find myself distracting myself from my own problems by helping others with theirs. It's not necessarily a bad thing to focus on yourself when you need to. Sometimes you just need to say "no."

actually the way you describe it, Naruto isnt a bad role model at all.... that never give mind set is a good personality trait :)

Yeah it has always been my way of looking at things fire and neoyuki i see that its just very complicated for me to do that i am way to giving but thanks for offering me advice though