The Wish Fountain

lol @neet_one I don't mean to laugh if you're going through some shit, but the blatant double post there got me.

I wish that tsunpaper is doing okay. https://c.tenor.com/eW8l2UmVFFkAAAAC/railgun-anime.gif

i wish they would let genndy direct another movie before i die https://c.tenor.com/Qu37UmF2sJcAAAAM/cries-horimiya.gif

Because I'm generous, I'll grant a quick wish and explain myself. I only came here to explain myself since someone told me they saw posts about people missing me on my wish thread so here I am. I will type it once and will not respond to this, so let me be clear. For many reasons, I have decided it is for the best for me to no longer reside here. No I'm not depressed. No I'm not suicidal. Yes I'm healthy, alive and well with the usual dose of physical agony from my injury ridden body. Heck I'm so healthy I've lost some more weight recently and am all that much closer to my target weight. In all, I am just being more true to myself where as before my performer habits were kicking in. The need to entertain people is strongly built into me. It runs in my blood, hence why I made a career out of it. But one cannot help but question if that is who I actually am? The line starts to blur between being genuine and acting. Truth be told in reality I am actually a fairly non-social human-being. I just indulge myself in what I like and leave it at that. I tend to find I am very much a black sheep no matter wherever I go and regardless of who I talk to. It tends to get tiring bearing in mind that whoever I am talking to does not think the same about what I like/dislike. You might say that sounds silly since life is full talking to people who see the world differently, and there is beauty in seeing the world how others see it. I agree with that too. However, this has basically been life for me for so long now. Ultimately I feel less of myself and more of a projection for others to look at with few to no strong preferences/opinions on anything. So with that my performance has come to an end. I must retire from the stage of MaiOtaku. It's been an interesting experience but I don't think I really have the energy to keep up with it anymore. Regardless to all of you who put up with me, just thank you for humoring me. Even if it was a pity laugh or two... please don't tell me if that was really the case XD

Now, if you think I am full of it and am not properly explaining myself well, all I can say to that is... TOUGH. I am tired of having to constantly justify my explanations for things irl and I really don't want to do that here too. I am aware that I am not good at conveying what is in my head, so sue me <3 But considering that in irl that I explain things like 5 different ways until people start to vaguely understand what I am saying (family included) it doesn't motivate me to do the same here as well. So all I ask is one thing. A wish, to be more precise. I wish that my poor explanation and decision to vacate MO is to be respected, regardless if you agree with me or not. With that final statement, if you have somewhat of a desire to forge forth and contact me here, you may do so with-in the 24 hours left until I can deactivate this account again for the final time. With that I bid you adieu~ May you all have wonderful lives and be happy and true to yourselves, leading a life that is right and will not lead to immense regrets. Sincerely, Tsun

more alternative sports animes (like ballroom e youkoso, kaze ga tsuyoku fuiteiru, and hikaru no go) please https://acegif.com/wp-content/gifs/coin-flip-11.gif

please god let me get this job and start an actual fucking career https://i.imgur.com/TB5tDnx.gif