Going out bad

No i do not question myself and where i am going. I know what i want from my life. I have always known what i wanted out of life. The route and path may have gotten a little beaten up along the way but the end goal has never changed. Like i said nothing is wrong with me specifically. Its outside factors pointing in that is my problem. Its wanting to do this, but cant do this because that is stopping me. Or wanting to have this, but cant have this because that needs to be done first. In terms of my life i have found success, everything i have sought out to accomplish within my own control i have have attained and will continue to attain. Its just the things i dont control that fucks up my life. As far as relationships with women, yeah at one point in time i did want a relationship ngl. But after dealing with women, being cheated on, being done dirty, being used as entertainment, or for attention. I dont need a woman to make me happy. I am already happy without one. I dont need a girlfriend or anything, no man does actually. I mean besides having kids yeah, but i mean even that i dont really care about. As for family stuff you missed the point there i was simply stating i have started to reflect the only look out for yourself mentality. The whole point of everything i have said is basically i dont agree with people who use you or ruin your life. Self preservation and healthy mental state is what i hope everyone can one day achieve because it is always someone else that makes your life worse. Some might think they make it better, but what happens when that person leaves?

Oh pls @xinmage like me? Nah boi, theres's only one of me https://thumbs.dreamstime.com/b/cute-cat-glasses-smartphone-sleeping-bed-home-closeup-cute-cat-glasses-smartphone-sleeping-bed-home-204961343.jpg