Why are you single?

I found someone once upon a time... Perfect for me in everyway, Then the pandemic hit and I lost my job and struggled to find work afterwards, More-so I moved back and fourth between jobs while constantly going to see her overseas. Eventually I proposed to her in rome and we were happy... But I didn't cultivate the life needed for both of us to flourish. So she left... And now i'm here with sweet memories, a broken heart, and the greatest lesson I've ever learned. If something is perfect for you. Make sure you do everything in your power during every waking day to make sure it flourishes.

I believe that I am still single because of me being anti-social when I was in high school. I never even bothered to date a girl there, nor went to the prom. It also didn't help that I was perceived as gay just because of the way I looked, talked, and act. (I'm actually NOT gay) I am currently 32, and I am not getting any younger. I truly need to start a relationship with a woman.

I'm too difficult to handle (insufferable personality), spoiled goods (for those who prefer pristine people), I'm hideous looking and have a tendency to always find fault within people that makes relationships a struggle to flourish, like, I know my flaws and issues plentifully, there's nothing there to deny my problems, buuuut some things that I find in others make it very difficult for me to look past them and I start becoming conflicted on whether it's worth it to keep it up given how I'm having second thoughts and it hasnt even matured properly

Stuck in special ed until high school, then stuck in night-shifting during most college years until I was put on medications and counseling, then stuck with elderly overdoing overprotective, infantilizing parenting too far even while doing independent living throughout the pandemic. Plus born with alienating personality passed down from my mother's father's side of the family who had similar issues growing up. I'm also socially-selective and feel like I'm part of the group, but not part of the conversation. And most women around me are too close-minded, shallow, boring, superficial and condescending.

Cause girls are scary and dudes are gross more specifically all the girls I've dated have been some form of crazy and just the touch of a dude will literally make me puke so now I'm just chilling and waiting for someone who isn't crazy and isn't a dude

In seriousness, I'd need someone who'd genuinely feed my ego. No one wants to do that. They should. See more value in a man like me.

I need someone who will let me be myself even around them. If my boundries conflict with theirs, then they are not worth the effort