Broken People

I honestly feel that alot of my past relationships would have worked if they only met me halfway. Most of them cheated on me, only the first time really made any sort of impact on me. Since i basically put that girl on a pedestal and she still had the nerve to do that to me. I feel like i lost alot of my motivation for dating after multiple women have done nothing but be assholes to me, use me and toss me aside when they find what they really want. I feel i could treat people so much better if they just took a chance on me. Not a single person i have dated gas ever taken a chance on me. All i ask is to just meet me fucking halfway. I have tried to better my life to make any sort of dating situation possible. Still it just isnt enough for some people. I feel like i drive myself crazy trying to be the best person so at least someone will look at me the way i do them. At this point i have all but given up, but im getting there. Out of trillions of people on earth i keep running into the ssme girls who dont care about me, who only care about themselves, who will cheat on me when i literally cater to their needs. Sad life of a yandere.