pure sadness part 2

I've tried i can not do it. I've died there's nothing to it. I'm being shut away in the shadow of light being stabbed in the chest in the darkness of night. Everything I do is wrong where's the right. Killing my insides theses cuts just might. I know that am small cut into my arm knives and all please don't hurt me I'm already hurting myself I'm dead on the inside and you've just about killed me on the out. This is not a time of endless words or an open hand promise that will never last, this is the time of truth and cutting away a lie thats past. You will never desire the man who now lves the dead and dark. I will not be a pawn or bow down or be held hostage by a lie that people call life. People see with there eyes and not with there mind your eyes lie to you I can lie for you but before that i would rather stop living. Your love is a spark that has falling on a wet ground of a black heart that has been dead for years the passion has died when will death do us part?