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I have heard many therapists are overbooked with clients. That the majority of patients who seek help through insurance are given options far outside their area. Having had relatives with varying mental health issues from sucidal-depression to dementia I know it is a rough ride. Thoughts can be altered by natural chemicals in the brain or lack thereof. So when another who isn't accustomed to such behavior is confronted with a bizarre episode it can admittedly scare the shit out of them. That said I agree it takes a group effort to deal with the situation. People should be aware that a lot of people go undiagnosed with real life crippling disabilities that are in normal terms "All in the head!" Still I know how emotionally exhausting anyone trying to assist can feel too. One has to acknowledge that a person's responsibility to themselves takes priority. Yet as I said earlier both the person suffering and the people involved have to work together in a healthily balanced manner for any progress to occure. Unfortunately it seems those who suffer similar mental disorders often find sanctuary in each other only to exasperate their common illness. Either way, I feel your pain on some level. Not a miracle healer, but I will send you as much positive energy as I can! Be safe and well my friend.