Hit a wall

Felt like nothing is happening. Locked yourself alone in a room. Immersing yourself online to ease your social needs. No one really cares. Anxious, deprived, droughted, tired.

You know that chemicals like anthocyanin pigments have been found to help with some of the symptoms you describe. Your from the Philippines go get some God dam ube and munch on the acetalated anthrocyanin pigments to suppress your symptoms. At the very least the quest for coveted esoteric chemicals from all across the globe will be like a campaign/adventure that will keep you distracted from your symptoms.

But cero is right it is all down hill from here on out no matter what you do. Welcome to the deepest levels of the abyss.