Keeping my sanity

Should I have given in? would it have made my life easier? I know people who drink their lives away but im doing that by myself what diff would it make if i did

The awkwardness? no i think thats going to be apart of me no matter what i do, I always say the wrong thing at the wrong time... Or cant think of anything to say at all... maybe it would have gotten rid of that

Thats not a bad thing tho.. it means im saving other people of having to deal with any of it... any of my life, no one wants to be apart of that... not even me

Tomorrow ill forget i ever even had these thoughts.. till they come up again, when they do I remember all of the times i have thought about it.. all the wasted time spent on worrying about something that you cant change... cause you cant change the past or how you think... you can only change the way people think that you think

Its all about a fake smile and a fake attitude,at this point is it fake tho. If you do something enough or say something enough it becomes true right? Even if its not true if u believe it to be its true to you

You will be happy, you will find people who care, someone will understand one day you just have to keep opening up till you find that someone...