Reason for Living

I used to wonder why and then I had an epiphany. My reasons just so happened to come from an almost attempted suicide. It took me doing some serious introspection to see what it was that would make me happy and even so I can honestly say that's ever evolving. As I sat there that night, the thought of "This can't be it." just seemed to echo thru my soul. For me, it became the simple things in life, love, marriage, family and all that "normie" stuff. I'm but a simple man. However, even after finding these things in life, the thing I truly want for happiness is that I can be a man of my word. I'm not some kind of habitual lier or something, rather, I'm finding that my deep rooted emotional side (Thanks dad. I probably need counseling.) has started to rear it's ugly head and in some ways, impede that which was supposed to be simple. We all look at the end goal, but we all to often neglect to see the steps that WILL take us to that precipice of change. So, in short, it's making the changes necessary to keep simplicity simple and that is no simple task. http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=sMmTkKz60W8 Can't have the good without the bad.

There is no reason. I'm here, therefore I am.

I don't know what's going to happen in the future. That's all. I want to see it.

Honestly? My mother and my aunt. Also my best friend and my pets. They're the most important things in my life right now. Family first and all.

Ideal version: Happiness,adventures, knowledge +enlightenment! Reality: mental and financial independence＜I'd like to make more money to guarantee that I can freely take control of my life by myself ＞;Physical health;Wellbeing of my parents,relatives, acquaintances and friends;companion;helping and inspiring a few people I already came across or will come across.

Why do i live huh...personally? No reason at all. I mean sure i got fam That'd be sad as heck to see me go but I'm really living just because I want to. Besides suicide is pretty lame, ending it on a L, if the christians are right there goes your ticket to heaven, chances are whoever pushed you there isnt gonna know or care enough, makin the peeps who actually cared sad and what if the next day woulda been an awesome one? Too many L's for this guy.

I don't have a reason, nor do I need life to contain any meaning. I'm just a prospector, looking for the things in this world that have value to me. And if I can't find something that makes me happy, I try to create it.