Breaking Free from oppression

suicide only way only way to leave the rat race even rebellions and uprisings dont work

i It has happened to me 6.5 yrs ago, i had an abusive father and a lot of complications related to him and my atmosphere in my school led me to hit rock bottom, i dont want to give my bad-history in public but i pretty much went through hell everyday.. both bullying + constant making fun of in school and everyday punchinh bag in house, i was socially isolated and pretty much like house arrested coz of my father, i felt like suiciding everyday. It happened for 6 months and i still remember them coz it had the most significant effect in my life... that feeling of hitting rock bottom, that loneliness and injustice changed my life for the good. U might not believe me but what saved me from there was maths lol, before that i was not interested in studies/knowledge and used to hate maths and was the kind of person who roams around the whole day and does whatever his friends demand him to. But in those 6 months when i had no1 and nothing else to do(as i wasnt allowed to have entertainment) i pretty much tried my maths book a bit seriously and it changed my life ^^ i got soo much involved in that, focussed all my anxiety and stress on that.. i would only think of maths all the time, in class and in house when i recieved those punches, that way my emotions got suppressed. And in 6 months i had a drastic change in my personality which shocked everyone ^^ i finished 9th, 10th, 11th and 12th grade maths in 6 months and further continued the pursuit of knowledge with science and since then the bullying automatically stopped and even if it wouldnt have i wouldnt give a fuck. I would dive deep into finding knowledge as a means of escaping all the mentally stressfull events happening around me! After 1.5 yrs i changed schools to the top training institute of my state with 95% scholarship! All the knowledge i had accumulated were finally showing their colours, after more 2 yrs i fought back against my father's abusive nature and didnt allow him to hurt mom + i had achieved the greatest achievemnt in my life as i ranked no.2 all over india in the medical entrance exam of india where aprox. 1 million students appeared for the exam(yeah super tough competition). So yes i hit the rock bottom and rised to mountains from there, and i dont think i could have done the latter without the 1st! Sometimes bad things happen for a good cause. Ever since that time i have believed that gaining knowledge can always be good no matter what the situation is ^^

@Lamby: Yeah, I think this human race is done for. Hence why I stopped being a human and became a cat person long ago ='.'= Still regret nothing to this day. Anyway.... 1: Assess why everything is horrible and see if they can be prevented in the future. 2: Decide if you want to deal with the easier ones first to get them out of the way, or to deal with the pain in the butt ones to get them over with. 3: Just do it. Set goals, even if they're small, and try to do them everyday. One small goal is to try and say "hello" to everyone that passes by me, and even to the metro bus driver. Granted, I say "Howdy" instead, but eh, minor detail. I know there's more, but I think this small bit will do for now.

My life was hell in the middle school because of my classmates, especially of certain person among them I was bullied and they were making fun of me every possible time. My mom was very strict with me and I was thinking about suicide too. But when I went high school everything changed. My new classmates are amazing people and I was accepted and made friends with them. Also, my mom is not that strict any more and my life is happy now ^^. But there are two of my classmates, which are bullied from the entire school (not only from class) and I become friend with one of them. He has a lot of deseases and he is relly depressed person, because of the bulling and his parents, who are drunks. I relly can't help him and the other guy, only because I was bullied there was no one to protect me and I still hate the world. About driving into the darkness, well, I think we have two options, depending on the person: 1 made the other people's live a hell because of their sins and drive even deeper down (which is relly bad though) 2 find something important to live for and pursue it to very end (which is a cliche, but you must agree it is the better and the correct way). Now I am looking to become historian or mangaka and it is nothing better in this world to have a dream bto accomplish. This is my opinion.

Ah, bullies. I remember one in high school. I tried everything to get rid of them. 1: Ignore them 2: Move away from them 3: Talk to someone on it But when all that failed and they started to kick me under the table where the cameras couldn't capture it, I just said "screw it" and punched them in the face and continued to do that until they gave up or until the teachers decided to do their job. I fight as a last resort only, I'm not a barbarian. Pacifist at heart. I got 3 days detention from the principal because of it, but I regret nothing since they stopped bullying me after that. Never saw them again actually... Hmm.... Meh. There were some rumors on me, but I didn't care since they're just rumors. So long as it didn't become an anime moment where stronger people wanted to challenge me to test their strength, I was good. Historian or Mangaka, huh? Those are some nice choices and I wish you luck on them.

I'd say what helped me "break free from oppression" would simply be my stubbornness. Honestly no matter how far I fell there was still a part of me in that dark place that kept repeating "No. I WON'T accept this result. There has to be another way, I can do better than this." There was a lot of times where I felt completely hopeless over the years where that little thing saved me. I'm pretty competitive so my pride won't allow me to continuously lose without trying as many times as I possibly can. I would never be able to be at peace with myself if I simply resigned myself to just...giving up and/or justifying my apathy with things like "well nothing matters anyway". That's just not something I do. If I start something I'm sure as hell going to finish it and there's no way in hell I'm going to waver on that or let anyone get in the way of that.