Vent

I've been heavily dissociating for days, maybe a week? Idk how long it has been but I started passing out yesterday because I haven't been eating. I didn't even know this was something I did but I hit the peak when protests broke out. Riots destroyed places I grew up around and my friends were out there with their phones off so they couldn't be tracked. Current events and anxieties of the economic future triggered this whole episode. Everytime I eat something I think how I might not be able to eat like this in the future and I get sad. I hope I can find a job before the end of summer. I'm doing a lot better this morning because I promised myself last night I'm going to do better. My mental health is usually solid but 2020 has me tired.

@alihawk dont worry about all that, just try and stay healthy. Not eating now wont help your situation anymore than it is. You will just make a bad problem even worse. Things are gonna be ok, its just the curse of 2020. I hope you find a job and everything goes ok so no more worries. Just stay positive. Things will bounce back eventually. If you ever need any guidance or help. The people of MO are here.

you can't change that height but you can be cute if you want to, act like an anime girl.

I wanted to vent but it's hard to even describe how I feel Life is unfair in ways that are maddening. I've cut so many people from my life as it is and it still hurts. All I can do is look up and convince myself "it's for the best. " But that's life isn't it? The show must go on.