Vent

Am i doing something wrong? Am i living my life wrong? Where sinners live their best life and me who does right lives unhappily? I stick to my faith and many abandoned theirs. Am i wrong for staying? Am i wrong for following this path when i feel i have been abandoned years ago. There is a short story called "footprints in the sand" where a guy walks with god along his journey in life and at some point there is only one set of foot prints and he thinks those are his own when really they are god carrying him. I dont feel this way i feel god has stopped walking with me and just watches from a distance as i walk further and further away. When life gets hard when things look bleak i ask for help but he is so far away that he cant hear me. So far away that when i do get help its already too late. Is this why people stop believing, i dont want to, but i also dont have much reasoning cuz i suffer both ways regardless.