Vent

I miss being in a relationship but at the same time I'm enjoying being that strong independent woman that I am ... but still I miss having someone to cuddle and just be happy with -_-

why cant i be a normal person and interact with others? why am i such a scared moron all the god damn time... i want to love and be loved... i want to social and talk to people... i wanna be able to leave my room without feeling like im gonna fall into an endless abyss...

Playing overwatch makes me wanna punch things c: maybe i should get a punching bag, i used to have one when i was little

Go to an animoo convention and room with random people from the internet kings. That's what I did and it helped push me to be more social. Helped change my life big uwu

I force myself to be social by putting myself in a job or something where i have no choice but to talk to people and it was far away from family so i couldnt run to one of them to do something for me. I also force myself to go out with coworkers even tho my mind says no. Alot of the time im anxious and nervous for no reason and have a great time.