Vent

Well I'm trying to fight my own insanity on a daily basis but usually give in sometimes. Which that's not good when I do. Cause then I got all these horrible thoughts n stuff and want to act on them. I can't commit suicide either because I've learned lots of people will miss me and it'll break them. Plus another thing I've learned a long time ago about it is that it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I don't want to do it either cause I'm scared of death. And the fact my family's life is kinda going outta wack doesn't help either oof.

Roosterteeth just cost me $100 AUD. Wtf? Cancelled and even asked for a refund. Bastards should at least ask if I'm cool with a double in price cost. And obviously the memo didn't reach me through their hundreds of spam emails.

You know, I don't often hate. I believe if you hate, you do nothing but spread more hatred throughout this already dark and unforgiving world. But I think I hate you. I think deep down, I really fucking despise you for all you did. I hate myself because I feel such hatred for another person. But I really fucking despise you!