Vent

Tell me how come im not even at my deployed location yet and im already stressed out. I swear someone wasnt doing their job. Here is me toting 2 heavy ass bags wondering where tf im supposed to go. Handing me a piece of paper and throwing me to the wolves makes hella sense. Sad that a guy from another military installation also deploying was the only one who had helped me out. I ask my UDM she tells me "idk" dont you send dudes all the time? You literally sent someone not too long ago. Man i just want food and to call it a night i have a rough few days ahead

now both my sister AND brother are home great, this will be fun https://media3.giphy.com/media/7LDNLMkRGAFeo/source.gif

I want to drop kick a child. Just been to a beautiful wedding it was great. I stayed up late drinking with inlaws and sister's friends and overall good time. I shared an awesome room with my eldest sister who was the bride's maid and I said damn I'm going to sleep all DAY tomorrow... AND NOW I'M SO CROOK! Woken up at 6 am hungover by my parents who tell me I'm going on a train today for a 3 hour ride through the mountains. FIRST I'D FUCKING HEARD OF IT! I tried to say nah I'm not up for it. BUT THE TICKETS ARE ALREADY PAID FOR AND THEY ARE EXPENSIVE! FUCKING ASK ME BEFORE YOU PAY FOR SHIT ON MY BEHALF LIKE WTF! Basic logic right? Am I being unreasonable? So I go on this train going 17 km/h through some trees sick as a bloody dog. My brother sits his three kids next to me and then fucks off to the other end of the train while I'm taking a short nap. I wake up to my 3 year old nephew sacking me with his head. The other one is trying to fight some indian kid on the train and my 5 year old niece is constantly trying to cover my eyes and won't stop. AND THEY DO NOT LISTEN TO ANYTHING! I tried for about 15 minutes to control them and then had to go find my brother to watch his own damn kids! I love kids, I really do. I get along with all my other sibling's children. But my brother's kids are just inconsiderate assholes who don't listen to anyone. THeir whole goal in life seems to be to piss off everyone until someone slaps them silly (and knowing my brother that's probably the only attention they get i their life). Train ride is finally over and I have t stay at the fucking farm house where my brother and his kids are staying because my mother BOOKED ME ON AN nocturnal animal night tour. On the tour I was constantly chasing his kids around and I finally realised I'd been booked for all this shit without being asked because they wanted a babysitter and I'm the only one of the siblings without a partner there. I'm so pissed off and delirious and I want to go home so bad. I just wanted to sit in my hotel room and recover from the wedding. And everyone seems to be pissed with me for being grouchy now. I've just got back from that night tour and I'm spending the night at the farmhouse because no one will drive me back to the hotel because its 20 km away. I'm going to say it here: Fuck my family to the moon. I need to vent somewhere so I don't bust out of this room and tell them myself. I just spent the week repairing relations with my family. I'm not sure I can talk to anyone right now without tearing them a new one.

Packed and ready to leave. Too flat for this shit. Probs gonna be here 2 hours waiting for these people to finish with their pictures. Had no privacy or time to myself all week. I just want this to end already. Plane's tonight. Just got to stick it out.

Reality has that mental affect on some. I'm dealing with a lazy a** co-worker who does not want to work. Even when she gets reported she isn't being punished apparently. Just a talking ng to. If I did that this company would be forcing me out!

I just don't know. Trying so hard to improve myself that life forces me down. Promises that people would help only to get silence. Try to meet people just to be alone. Told I have potential only to be rejected. I don't want to give up, but it does seem easier. A joke where no laughs. I have so many problems, one vent isn't good enough. Only place I can because no else will. What to do but keep going forward. Life isn't easy, but I don't want to give up.

I know what you mean, and the only way to comfort is through yourself, because no one can help! a friend that proclaims to be your bestfriend then never communicates with you ever again. i know the feeling way too much. no matter how much we try to better ourselves. we always look at the problems first. Lets just try to enjoy what we do from now on, its the only thing we have left. . . and originally here to vent : Good luck to me :D

In that spirit. I'm actually moving away from my family. I just decided this morning. It's time I established myself as my own person. Because I've learnt over and over that the people who care for you can't be held responsible for your happiness.