do you guys think im ugly?

so im back and feeling shittier than ever. im literally crying as i type this and dont want to talk about it but i told you guys i'd tell you what happened. so i get to the gym and the woman at the front desk is really attractive. she turns to me, and as im about to say hi, she smirks and starts laughing. her co-workers all look over to see whats going on, see me, then quickly turn away to avoid laughing themselves. i stood there quietly, feeling destroyed on the inside, but garnered up the confidence to scan my card and go downstairs to workout. as im walking away, i peak back to see that shes still laughing uncontrollably, struggling to breathe. but i sigh and continue, because its not like this is the first time i've been humiliated. so i go to the bench press station. i throw a ten pound plate on each side of the bar. as im putting on the weight i feel extremely uncomfortable, like everyone is staring at me and thinking "man, what an ugly, weak bitch." i was by far the skinniest person in there, everyone else was a meathead compared to me. but i ignore those thoughts and lie down on the bench. so i start benching, and about 7 reps in, the bar falls on my chest and i cant get it up. when it fell on my chest, i let out this really loud and embarrassing wheeze which could probably be heard throughout the entire gym. a bunch of people started laughing and i laid there with that weight crushing my chest for about 20 seconds before someone came over to help. i turned to thank him but he rolled his eyes and quickly turned the other way, as if talking to me for just a second would be an embarrassment to him and hurt his reputation. i looked around and saw a bunch of people pointing and laughing at me, and even heard one person shout out "FAGGOT" which caused more laughter. at this point i felt so anxious and ashamed of myself that i ran out of the gym staring at the ground, not being able to bear seeing all the people getting kicks out of how pathetic i am. i drove home, sweating, heart beating, basically having a panic attack and ready to faint. im surprised i didnt crash, and honestly i wouldnt have cared if i did. i jumped on my bed, buried my face in my pillows, and cried for about an hour straight. im just so done.

Hmm, in regards to the gym, if you're interested in getting in good shape, I would recommend checking out some videos from Athlean-X: https://www.youtube.com/user/JDCav24/featured It's a program by Jeff Cavaliere, he trains pro athletes all the time and really knows what he's talking about. Part of training is also having a really good diet, making sure you get all the of nutrients you need to see improvement in the gym, and he has plenty of good free videos to at least help people get started with that. He's also really good at pointing out exercises that are actually really bad and can lead to injury. I have a friend using his paid program and he's been seeing some really good results, I'm thinking about giving it a shot myself.

Okay, I gotta also be honest, reading your last post, that sounds like a pretty bad gym. I would highly encourage looking around for some other ones, people were pretty encouraging at the ones I've been to.

I hate it when people have to doubt themselves. Everyone is beautiful and charming in their own way and as for working out you don't have to go to the gym. You can buy some weights, go on runs or bike rides, find some strength building excerises to do at home. Fuck those people at the gym though that's completely uncalled for. Btw don't ever bench without a spotter it's dangerous And if you want I can ask my brother for a good training routine for you.

Don't be so down on yourself! You seem like a very intelligent, and nice person. Something I have learned from years of social anxiety is the thought that not everyone is looking at you, even if it seems that way. Social situations may seem rather tense and uncomfortable, but remember that everyone is capable of making fools of themselves. I bet half of those guys at your gym all have stubbed a toe, or were rejected at some point. Confidence is something you lack, yes, but you can gain more over time, but you have to stop beating yourself up. Buy a few weights at home; I hate going to the gym because I am lazy, but I use to weigh 286 pounds before I started working out at home. I now weigh 190. You can do it, friend! Keep moving forward! We all believe in you!

coev it sounds like your being hypervigilant im sure they werent laughing at you, and if so then theyr fucking assholes and you shouldnt let them get in your way put in some ear phones, listen to some heavy metal as you work out, eat more protein, and try and change your mentality use there assholery as a motivation or, dont work out at a gym it sounds like your issues way more internal then external, maybe invest in some weights for your home instead, and/or go out jogging at night try some confidence building and make some friends on here!

if you just wanna bone then tinder isnt really the place, its full of normies try craigslist or someplace like that? and dont give out dick pics, especially if you have a history of people catfishing you