Complaints/Struggles

maybe he thinks it makes him cool? i don't know what these kids are doing these days. anyway. had a nightmare last night. my dog that died became a zombie and tried to kill me. i cried when i woke up, cuz i loved that dog, he was awesome when i was a kid. helped when my parents went through their divorce. until i could no longer see him, i wish i could have spent more time with him. but really i wish i could have spent more time with all of the pets i've been around. i loved them a lot.

@Reinhardt & Loli, I honestly wouldn't know, I mean, if he'd want my attention just say hi or sth? I think he really just does it to look 'cool.' Or he just doesn't like me, I don't know. I'd love to to say it didn't get to me that much but it does. Right now I'm really just avoiding conversations with that guy. Creep. ;-; I do have a friend to back me up though so it's a bit better now

So ive lost someome who i treasured alot online. When we met we were both happy and we talked everday. I liked her but she was lesbian , till 1 day she got a gf and we started arguing from there i knew i did some things wrong because i was jealous but i appologised and even make a present for her , yet she bring the past up.. I spent so many days in november and december thinking of how to solve our arguements. I even reflected on myself.. And in the end she left me.. Even though she told me im important to her before. Ive been trying to move on since then trying to find better friends. I found new people which helped , but sometimes its a struggle i break down and cry alone.. My friends try to help too but i dont wanna trouble them so much. So yeah..

trying to find a job is soul crushing im willing to work holidays and weekends but still no replies