Complaints/Struggles

Something has been stressing me out way more than it probably should lately. Last year I decided to get a brand new car, the first time I've ever done such a thing. Before this I drove beaters around whenever I couldn't ride my motorcycle. Anyway, ever since I got this thing I stress out over keeping it in tip top shape. I clean it regularly, give it the occasional wax job, keep it mechanically sound... basically do my best to keep it showroom condition. Anytime I get the tiniest bit of anything, like a little rock chip, it just kills me inside. Tonight as I was leaving the park, some punk decided to throw a ball at it really hard for some reason. Not going into details of the situation, but it left a scratch on my car and I kinda let it slide without reporting anything. No dent thankfully, but a scratch... and it kills me inside. I can probably buff it out as it's not too deep, and I will, but this obsession of keeping my car pristine is killing me to the point where I wish I just kept driving a beater car around because I spend way too much time on it.

I'm thinking maybe I need to stop stressing over it so much, and just focus on keeping it mechanically sound. It's tough... but I guess if it gets enough scratches I'll kinda stop caring maybe. *shutters* There's going to be a lot of wear and tear on the exterior that can't be helped. :/

@John Felix It would appear that way outwardly, but I always remember she was seriously abused and neglected during her childhood, so really all I can do is pray and meditate for her happiness that she may surpass the limits caused by her upbringing and overcome her own suffering. Everyone in this world just wants to love and be loved, its just some of us do not know how to appropriately reach out for said affections, and that leads to issues. Atleast in my world view, May all beings be free from suffering and filled with boundless joy!