Confessions

I don't even know what it's like to become hungry anymore. They make sure you eat lot's and lot's over here. Very thoughtful people. Literally killing me with kindness.

@willworkforisekai Hunger is digging around in the snow and looking for edible herbs and weeds in your lawn mid winter. Like me during the pandemic lockdown. XD

@chocopyro That's tough XD. Atleast you still know how to complete the tutorial. I'm thankful our ancestors clutched them levels. I would be down bad having to revisit it. I never been hungry fr fr. But, they don't even let me have the thought of I want to eat here. I been down bad once where I almost cried when my homie bought me a cheeseburger. I swear on that day that man was a Saint to me.

My girl is so fucking sweet I might actually catch the feelings I don't have. She even understands that I lack emotion. And, says it's ok and I don't have to be alone anymore. And, she respects me more every time I share what's in my head. And, wants me to share and rely on her when I'm hurting. She has the most beautiful soul & heart. She's short but a gaint in spirit. It's overwhelming. Smothering. I can feel myself becoming more intune with love because she drowns me in it. I don't think I can withstand this onslaught and remain the same person. Because she doesn't change it's real and intense. Being with her is like being close to the lord or the father. Because I can tell she is loved. She gives the type of love that can nurse a poor man back to health. I wonder is this God's way of telling me I'm still worthy of love no matter how ugly I am. And, that even though I don't have what others have I can still make others very happy. I'm just happy I bring her happiness. Because she provides me a home. I might actually beat this shit fucking with this type of love. My 5 years of chasing after my darkness to lay eyes on it so it can't stay is paying off and my person feels very loved. And, I feel with her the bad information about myself I've hoarded can peak deep enough more frequently into change. Thanks to her showing me so vividly what love is. She's so sweet that my left over bad tendencies are bending the knee. Like there telling me here I am it's not right to keep existing if she continues to be so sweet. I hope more parts of me can't stomach itself in her presence.

Awesome! Love, true love is amongst the rarest of treasures. As long as it's truly a mutual TEAM, those bonds will be some of the toughest ever forged. "I'm just happy I bring her happiness. Because she provides me home." Couldn't have said it better.

Might have been because of the lack of love you're willing to give yourself, but I've been known to be wrong.

I confess that I have the superpower to talk to animals, the problem is they don't talk back, except the crows, and one time a cat. Thinking about it, for the cat it could of been a low deep meow that sounded like hello so I'm not sure if it counts.