You're Different! (In a Bad Way)

Akward to be around in public. Due to me being controversial, an adrinalin junkie, as well as a person who like to do social experiments ( should mention i could be a great torture for the cia wiht the idea i come up with that are in the back of my mind.)

It doesn't really matter, all humans are hypocrites. No matter what anyone says, everyone says one thing then does another. Kinda like how people seem to be your friend then talk crap behind your back. I don't really see anything as evil unless it's done to me directly. If they do something to someone else then I really don't care.

Socially unacceptable? Being depressed and suicidal all the time even though I have no intent to act out on my wants. I just joke about it to feel better about myself. Oh and having post-traumatic stress disorder (complex edition). So I act very cautious in public to avoid any weird confrontations. That means no eye contact, being secretive, and being quietly upset etc. So much fun.

Easy. I come across as condescending when talking to me online (Not so much in real life, its just the tone I speak with isn't easily conveyed here). I have ADHD, which people fail to understand is not a congnative disorder, but rather an adaptation evolved from our hunting/gathering days that only got reawakened by the way commercials, advertisements, video games, and various other flashy forms of media try to catch your attention with 60 different things at once. I am easily wrapped up in my "Fantasies" which is a fancy way of saying I imagine too often. I'm nocturnal, have tried to fix that several times over and failed, and continue to fail, since my last attempt was just two days ago, and soon to be again tonight. I'm highly introverted, and while I don't classify myself as shy, I'm simply not driven to have a highly active social life because I've learned the value of self love, and therefore do not need to try to syphon attention from others in order to validate myself to myself. I take too long to make some decisions, and rush too soon with others. And although I mean to do no harm, and truly want to help others with my advice, it often comes to attention that there is a difference between what people want to hear and what they need to hear. I've delved too deeply into science as well as the super natural, making me a bitch for both religious and atheists to talk to. (By the way, I don't hate either, but it does get on my nerves when people claim something beyond human perception is true or false, especially with how fragile and small the human perception of reality actually is, when we get into the frontiers of modern physics.) I'm actually kinda lazy, and have an addiction to caffeine. I can be a slob, only choosing to clean when I get annoyed that no one else in the house has cleaned after three weeks. I don't drink or smoke, so apparently I'm still treated like some kinda angel, despite having been in more than one fist fight in my life. (Hence why my nose is slightly crooked.) Oh yes, and I recently have lost my car and my job in the same day, yet still get yelled at by people who think my life is shallow just because I've managed to find out how to live in a cheerful manner. So apparently I'm not allowed to warn someone that their self destructive habits are leading them to a path of ruin, just because I'm not afflicted with depression or bipolar disorder, or borderline personality disorder. (This entire post is not a rant by the way, I'm more self aware than what a lot of people think I am. XD ) ...Did I mention I'm also an otaku? http://i1243.photobucket.com/albums/gg554/_Lupichi_/Gifs/tumblr_m8av7sXR7i1qktlzuo1_500_zpse16b5481.gif ...Yeah... In all honesty though, I love the way I am. That's not to say I shouldn't strive to become better. But hey. If I can't love myself, who's going to? Its nobody else's job. So its gotta be mine. There you are, Yasu. I've given you all the ammunition I could think of off the top of my head. XD

I know, right? Well, guess I'd have better luck as a serial killer or something. I heard lots of people love them. (Disclaimer: This is not advisable.)

I'm not all that good at small talk, actually let me rephrase that, I don't do small talk. On top of that I'm impartial on a lot of decisions, so when people ask me which I'd prefer, I often say "I don't mind" with many choices as they just don't seem that important to be (e.g do you want pasta or spaghetti? - don't mind, either is fine).