What I deserve

Usagi, Kind of ironic naming your thread "what I deserve". Think on that.:)

"Good humor is a tonic for mind and body. It is the best antidote for anxiety and depression. It is a business asset. It attracts and keeps friends. It lightens human burdens. It is the direct route to serenity and contentment."-Grenville Kleiser Thought that was a good quote. You're not selfish. All our lives are different and we experiences different things. We get so involved in life that our happiness sinks to rock-bottom. Happiness should be a top priority on people's list. Do whatever makes you happy Usagi ^.^ life is too short to be unhappy all the time. You're not selfish, you're not a waste, and you do de several this. You're another person going through the journey of life that has many people here for you :)

omg you poor thing QAQ https://media.giphy.com/media/wSY4wcrHnB0CA/giphy.gif all teh hugs for you. but seriously (going off of your original post and not anything said after) i dont think you should kill yourself your not a waste of space at all i'd like to think your here for a reason and maybe you havent found it yet but i hope things get better for you :) you seem like a very nice person and im sorry to see you go through stuff like this

@Usagi I don't know you very well, but I have a good idea of what you are going through. If you need someone to talk to about it, I'm here for you. As you can tell from the support in this thread, there are people who don't want to see you go. I can't fathom any possible history that would make me wish you weren't here. Stay with us and be a part of our lives.

Usagi, my best friend has been living in your shoes for 17 years. She's been on every medication there is. She's had therapy. She forgets to eat. She averages 4 hours sleep a day. She's prone to night terrors from PTSD if she sleeps to long. She had the same problem with not having any self worth. She always felt she was a burden on everyone. She never got just how much we needed her. Just how much she did for us. She's a nurse now. She kind and companionate. She's helped and saved more people than you can imagine. She's an angel. But she got there by not giving up. If you don't feel you have worth, then do something nice for someone else. Even if it's just a smile. Everyone struggles in life. Smile and make the people around you smile. Spread a little happiness. That can be your purpose. There are plenty of people here that could really use your friendship.

<Original Post Removed>: You aren't so different. Even though you don't see it now. You have so much potential. You have no idea how many lives you could touch in the years to come. And it's not just big things like saving someone with CPR. If you smile at someone who's having a bad day. If you gave someone a hug that needed one. I could change their mood and the course of everything for the rest of their day. And that in turn could change things for everybody they interact with. You affect so much without realizing it. Losing you from this world would cause so much sadness. We'd lose all the good things that you could have done. All the people you could have helped will lose out as well. This world needs you. We need your smile.