Random thoughts...

think of it this way! you were the best leader of the tournament of bower anyone could ask for! and everyone praised you for it! i think everyone here can agree youre not an annoyance.

Thanks. I am just stupid today and need to just not think today. It's moods like these I really can't stand looking at myself. I thought I loved myself but I am just so upset rn.

Everybody is their own worst critic. Don't be so hard on yourself. For all the reasons you hate yourself, there's someone out there that will like you for them.

I can't even keep my apartment for my mom to live in. My father is a vegetable for the rest of his life. I did so well managing to stay happy for repeated two months but hearing $600 is all I will be able to get this time from the government to help pay my rent debt hurts beyond belief. Fuck the damn useless ass government. And no one truly loves my ass. They tolerate me and just put up with how annoying I am.