Random thoughts...

@theghoulieleader yeah ever since i got money i basically have been spending it on whatever i feel like. My newest obsession is this fucking trip that honestly will cost me 7 grand. But even then im planning trips before the trip. Its driving me crazy

In other news my mom called me saying its her "weekly call" and it was in the middle of me vibing to music and it pissed me off. I then told her about it. But ended up calling her back cuz i only felt bad if she were to pass away or something and thats the last thing i ever said to her. Honestly im not shit, the worst things in my life i deserve basically.

@thesailingteacup i think my problem is i push people away. My mom always tries to reach out to me and i just get annoyed alot of times i want people to leave me alone, unless i come to them. I honestly just think i dont have feelings sometimes. And if i do they are toward myself.