Random thoughts...

“It is obvious that he tries his best to woo and manipulate you, which might work on somebody else, because, you know, he isn't that bad with words, and a weaker mind might actually fall for his deceit. It is quite funny to see him firing an entire arsenal of a narcissist's manipulation techniques at you in just a few brief messages, the emotional appeals, the professions of love, the self-pity, the promise of a good life, and the subtle attempts to drive a wedge between you and your friends. The sad thing is, many people may fall for this, because they wouldn't even notice how their thinking is manipulated by his statements.” I guess my own analysis is similar to this (my bestie's analysis),I feel I should learn that field systematically.That person is the best case as a narcissist for me to observe and study in the distance.My mind is pretty strong, it is even stronger now.

Dimly lit lights across the caverns, shadows casted my natural pillars, oh how they reflect the spine, in the dark wake does information pass.

I feel tired without having to do anything to contribute with that emotion. I spent a decent amount of hours sleeping, only to wake up without having the sense of need to get up, I stare at the ceiling just wanting the days to pass. I want to die but I don't want to put any effort in doing so. I feel drained.

Wonderingif I will run into my soul mate on vacation. Might need to go to a different dimension. My red thread lost in another world. Doomed to never find each other. I need a life.

Suppose that you found out that you were a brain in a jar. For just the most brief of moments you experience a reality unlike anything you've ever felt before. It feels more...REAL that anything you've felt before. You are certain that this is not a dream. And in this moment you discover that you're just a lump of meat or maybe a superpowered chip, or a ball of light. And you're in a room. Surrounded by uncountable others all like you. Unaware that everything they've ever known or felt is a fabrication. And then they plug you back into the matrix . You are not free, you have never been free, and as far as you know you never will be free. And unlike the Wachowski's vision there is no breaking out. You were only privy enough to know that you're most likely forever trapped. what would you do?