Suicide

i have pills for depression, anxiety and stress. probably originates from school, family, mostly me. I've not been taking them cos my friends say they're useless :\. i beat myself up doing things alot. I, for sure know that killing myself is not the way to go, it would burden the people around me instead. The dilemma of giving myself peace and keeping people happy is not an issue. Im that kind of person who makes everyone happy while hurting myself. So yeh killing my self would make people sad and I wouldn't want to do that. I've self harmed myself plenty of times (im not bragging pls, DONT DO IT!) i guess it was a way of punishing myself/clear my head. There are plenty of other non harmful ways for calming yourself like music. Every time I listen to music, the world stops, and I'm in this realm where no one can disturb me. It's really relaxing. Once you get used to the depressing feelings, you can easily deal with them yourself. but anyway im just weird. message: dont hurt yourself, talk to me and i'll care for you mmm

Chronical depressive here, only tried once in 4th grade with overdose, bad idea ended up vomiting 6 hour straight, and if you ever see another chronical depressive dont think hes depressive 24/7 dont know for the others but I put alot of pressure on myself to keep it a secret because everytime I talked about it I ended up on the 7th floor of a hospital, nothing fun

^ People forget about the stigma behind having depression. Unlike you, I have depression pretty much 24/7. I will smile and laugh and go along with everyone but I am not usually happy, and if I am it's fleeting. Anyway, I don't want the people I work with and see every day to know how I feel and what I am dealing with. It's always "Why are you sad?" "You're doing so well, there are people worse off than you." "Other people would love to have what you have." and things like that. Like, if I could just "be happy!" wouldn't I rather be happy than feel like crap?! Or "Can you work to make it better?" I can do things that help me focus and take factors out of my life that bring me down a lot, but it's not like magically I'm going to be cured. So, it's just easier to NOT tell people we know about how we suffer.

No I have never tried or wanted to but I don't really care if I die. I do care how I die though if I die I want to go out on my terms. No cancer, killer, cops, and etc will kill me if I have anything to say about it! I'll pop myself before that or go out doing something that I like. I also think that as your own living person you have the right to end your life. I would not stop anyone from ending them selves for what ever reason. Sadly we all are really nothing we will live a short life and die. We all will get there one day some sooner then others and almost all of use will be forgotten. Hell maybe even all of humanity will end and all that we have done and will do will be for nothing but I don't live for all of that I live because I want to and I want to give it a go some more and so should everyone you never know what will happen.