Sigh... my current situation

I know it's been AGES since I last made a topic so bear with me, provided that you know me seeing many new people appeared and many old people left, but I digress. Ok so here goes nothing, I'm currently 27 and STILL living with my rents and STILL unemployed and STILL searching for work and nothing seems to change, so I gave up looking for a job and decide to enroll in a technical school for game design/simulation and animation. Guess what that class blew balls. The reasons are as following, for the first semester you're supposed to do these video lesson tutorials on 3D Studio Max(3DSMax) and I went with it although it was a massive headache,it took me an entire semester to get done with the first lesson on 3DS Max which had 78 videos, yes 78. But guess what? My instructor says oh 3DS Max is outdated it's all about Maya I'm like WTF? I wasted an entire semester on 3DS Max and the instructor tells me it wasn't a complete waste of time(yeah right)I asked when can I learn how to program for games and when do I start spriting? He tells me we don't sprite and not to worry about the game programming just worry about Maya for now, he told me that with 3DS Max and well look where it got me. To put it more bluntly the class is flawed, it says in the webpage that you learn how to make 2D and 3D games and 2D and 3D graphics. I only got to dabble in 3DS Max and Maya and hardly learned shit. So guess what I did I dropped out after being in the class for 3/4 of the single year(yes it's literally only one year), the class was very flawed and boring and I can't wrap my head around the fact that they were forcing us to use an outdated program and that their webpage was bullshitting. Now I'm currently searching for work once again and to no avail. But I'm sure you readers are thinking 1ST World problems. I can agree to some degree but it gets FARRRRR worse. You see during the time of me learning 3DS Max a relative of mine goes and have sexual affairs with his GF's daughter and kills her for getting her pregnant then tries to get me and my family pulled into the bullshit and we received a VERY unpleasant visit from the girl's uncle and the police got involved. My stupid cousin is in prison now for what he did, but I'm still shooken up by it. I'm sure you as the reader is thinking at least that problem solved itself, it did but things get worse. You see my little sister died in a horrible car accident while I was still in my shitty class. The loss was shocking and painful to endure. I couldn't sleep,eat,play video games nothing. My sister was a BIG part of my life, we went through some serious rough shit together from my brother threatening to kill my sister and I to searching for work day in and day out. Things were already hard now with my sister gone I have to endure ALL the hardships alone which brings me to my next problem. You see after dropping out my folks and my other brother won't get off my case about it, thinking I don't want to do anything. I'm frustrated and miserable, my sister is gone, I can't find work, the class was a bust and my parents are getting older and older. I seriously thought things were getting better for me last year when I first applied for class at my technical school when I found out my financial aid will cover me 100%. I thought to myself wow things are getting better, but things only got much worse. Now I don't know what to do at all. To be honest I just wished I could die and be free from all of my pain and torment. Sigh.

Hmm... Well, the bit about switching 3D programs is a very real thing in the field, and so it is normal for designers to have to switch between and learn new programs... I think Maya and Blender are both pretty standard in a lot of 3D games. The good thing is, most of them are pretty much the same for basic functions, you just need to learn which button does what. So it's mostly just interface/controls change. As for the class itself, it does sound bad if the teacher is simply making you learn from videos. o_o In the class I took, which was just a highschool program for students interested in game design, the teacher would walk us through each step of the program, and what the functions do... A teacher should not be relying on videos to teach students, the teacher needs to be the one to explain and walk you through the process, and help if you get stuck, and such... So I think that must be a really bad/lazy teacher. I feel really bad for that happening with your relatives... >.< I know I'd be extremely uneasy too, but I can't say "I can relate" since I never lost someone close to me besides pets... I just know it can really change some people, from how bad it can be. It's understandable to drop a class from so many things happening though, so you shouldn't blame yourself, and I hope others can come to terms that you do need kind support instead of being scolded. I think that there is hope, and that if you have close friends or therapist, they really can help you a ton. Not so much for things like financial stuff, but they really help you mentally and emotionally, which is important in recovering your overall quality of life.

Well I'll tell you this much 3DS Max isn't outdated, it's actually used just as much as Maya. Maya has advantages and 3DS Max has other qualities that make it superior to maya. I prefer modeling in Maya as opposed to Max, but the rigging functions in Max are better, so is the animating. Rendering was easier in max, but maya has the vray plugging for rendering. Video's are pretty handy to be honest, because I will tell you this now, no matter how many times an instructor goes over something..... You'll dump the information the very next day. The videos are there for you to go back home and practice on your own. Heck I teach both methods in conjunction on my spare time, that way the people that pick it up slowly can go home and continue to practice. All it is is practice, learning te hot keys helps you profoundly and also knowing the menu's. As for everything else going on in your life, that sucks dude but sometimes you gotta keep pushing harder and not give up. I understand the hardships, I was homeless when i went to school, and pretty much my family was like "ur derp gtfo" my ex gf dumped me... I slept at the school, and I had nothing. So.......... I had nothing to lose and that really helped me, it pushed me. I use negative energy and convert it into positive energy. I became wrapped up in CG so much that I was recommended to be a student teacher, I taught and tutored and got paid for it. Yeah I am still in school getting my fine arts degree, and my masters to teach in the University level.