I hate breakups its always ends up being my fault

Nah bruh you dont let anyone blame you for a break up obviously the other party didnt try hard enough to keep it going so its not always your fault it takes two to tango

the last partner i was with we broke up because something very bad happened but we left on good terms but since then i have struggled to move on my confidence has been shattered and i dont know what to do and the bad thing that happened keeps running through my mind i can't get over it its been over a year since its happened she has moved on but why cant i

The struggle, I know that feel but life goes on and as rough as it is we keep going honestly.. I've gotten to the point as to where I've given up.

What I refer to as the Big Break-up was horrible. I have witnessed marriages, divorces, and bounce backs after those things happen faster than it took me to get over that break up. At one point I was tracking time by the days I had gone without crying or thinking about it. Eventually though, days turned into weeks and now finally months.