Cosplaying and Overweight

I have explained before that I consider myself straight as I'm not attracted to masculine traits or male pheromone so in the biological/physical sense I'm a straight male. However I have a strong feminine side mentally and feel like I would be more comfortable if I was born a girl but it wouldn't be the same or worth the trouble to get a sex change. But I prefer girls clothes although I don't cross dress to any extreme most of the time for practical reasons. I would love to crossplay but it's getting harder to be able to pass for a girl as I'm getting older. Though my only really masculine feature in my face is a big nose (wish I could afford surgery, and more my eyes as I age). I actually developed an interest in astral projection with the concept of going into a girls body someday. But that's too big a topic to cover here.

Ahhh I think I undersand now a little more. And that is okay Loli-chan if your not straight, I think guys who are gay and like dresses are cute! I just don't understand the guys that are straight that do but I think I understand a little better. I can understand if a guy feels he wish he was born a girl, I have to admit being a girl is pretty awesome..I wouldn't change it for anything. So yeah I understand this more and I think that its totally fine doing what you want to do. I always felt the world was a very harsh place for males then it was for females..I mean its hard for females too but its just as demanding and hard for males. But I always felt lke the world was more forgiving to females too, naturally. So I can understand from a guy's point of view.

astral projection? I always wanted to know about lucid dreaming its so hard for me to do it! sometimes it just happens but then i end up forgetting im dreaming in my dreams and i loose lucidity.

I'm fat and I'm going to cosplay shura(blue exorcist) this saturday! Glad to have read this thread <3 it gives me a little bit of confidence <3 whoever hates should just suck it. They can't do anything about me ruining stuff for them anyway :3 Same goes to overweight/obese ladies!

^jineko --> You fat? Your the skiniest "fat" person I've ever seen! For reference, my ex was 250lbs and I didn't think she was that fat.