I'm feeling like i'm ugly i'm i

wolfy, last year i really was considering killing myself, i even had everything planned out, how i was gonna do it and my last words. I was at the lowest point in my life (so far), but you gotta realize that death is a permanent answer to a temporary problem, you will find some one special, i know its hard to accept oneself, i know it took me along time to just deal with my problems and just move on. But we all have our flaws, we just gotta learn how to deal with them ;D. We aren't perfect, we are unique in our own special ways, and if you really wanna feel happy about yourself then set some goals and tr to achieve them :D

Guys i really do feel lonely and ugly *sniff sniff* i feel all my life its just been a big waste seeing friends find someone and family members finding someone then throwing it in my face because i cant find no one it hurts no one cares i just said i wanted to die and no one said anything or did anything not talking about this site im loveable im kind i would give give give but no one gave back at all all i need is to pass and then no one will even notice i have done.

You gotta fight Wolfy, selfpity wont get you anywhere, neither will the pity of others. No-one is gonna do things for you, it falls to you to change your situation NOT a therapist or a bunch of random people from the internet. If your parents have been abusive and you really dont have anyone at all, sure go ahead and pop a hundred sleeping pills, if not, then you are just gonna be shoving all of your problems and anxiety unto those around you, its mean, selfish and disrespectful to those that do care about you.

For once I'm going to stop trolling the forums and give some (hopefully) helpful advice, I highly suggest you take the time and read all of it and think about what I say... As a person who's been diagnosed with a clincal depressive disorder and as a person who has tried to commit suicide several times during my high school years, I can tell you that self-pity is not going to help you change your mindset and/or become a more confident person. While I understand you're mainly posting these things for self-validation, it's important to stay strong if you really do feel like causing physical harm to yourself. If suicide is something on your mind, I suggest you seek help immediately. Now, since you are desperately seeking a relationship, I'm going to explain to you something that many people have probably told you before. It is important to remember that a relationship is very much similar to a business investment, except instead of money you need confidence. If you want to find a relationship, you're going to need some confidence, just like how you need money if you're going to invest into a company. While business and dating have little in common, I feel like this is an effective analogy given the situation. Because of this need of confidence, self-pity is going to only take you further from your goal. No woman wants to deal with the emotional baggage of a self-wallowing and emotionally distraught man. If you want to find a girl, you need to gain confidence in both yourself and in your life. A relationship is not a crutch for your emotional problems, not until you've shown a significant other that you're worth being a crutch for. That being said, there are many ways on tackling the feelings of loneliness and ugliness. I'll start with loneliness, as this is a problem that I have been having trouble with for several years now. Loneliness is a very distressing emotion that even the most introverted individuals find difficult to cope with. Since my only real friend is deployed overseas and I haven't talked to him in almost six months now, I have had to come up with ways to keep myself from feeling lonely. I can tell you right now the more you think about it, the more lonely you will feel. You need to find a way to get your mind off of the loneliness, to keep it busy and attempt to give yourself purpose. I don't suggest simply watching anime when lonely for several reasons I won't explain at the moment. If you are an introverted person such as myself, you need to keep yourself busy with either online acquaintances or hobbies; (preferably ones that are constructive.) Joining communities helps, but you need to interact with these communities in a positive manner if you want to mend your loneliness. As for feelings of ugliness, this is something I've also had to deal with for several years. Although it's getting slightly better now, I have never considered myself very attractive and for awhile thought I was too unattractive to ever be in a relationship. Attractiveness is not something that is that important in men. Things such as confidence, intelligence and other respectable qualities are going to find you a better girl in the long run. You're approaching the age where most women are becoming serious in finding the partner they will be with for the rest of their lives, unlike teenagers who are just living in the moment and value attractiveness much more. Anyways, I hope this helps you, Wolfyxuchiha. Feel free to Skype me if you ever need to talk.

I love seeing all the support! We're all here for you wolfy, you've got plenty of friends. Just enjoy your life, do what you want/need to do, focus on who is number 1, and you'll find somebody perfect. Staying positive is the best thing you can do and everything will fall into place from there :) @oreo, I'm sorry to hear that, I went through the exact same sh*t, it's tough, but also makes us stronger

Time heals all wounds buddy. Just keep your head up someone will come that will complete you. Just keep pushing on with a smile and positivity.

Thanks guys i really appropriate all the support i'm trying my best to fix the issues i have the only one one can do that is me. Please don't think im sucidial because i'm not but i'm not gonna lie at the moment it seems like the easy way out. I'm learning how to except all of me because i'm unique and beautiful and theirs only one of me also learning to except the darker side of me the shadow. Being yourself and loving yourself is key its a process but i believe i can get throw this just with step by step. Again i thiank all of you for the surpport and kindness of the words. Love Live Laugh and god bless =)