wiredspirit

To start I have thought about this topic quite a lot in my life and still haven't come to any solid conclusions. This is partly due to the fact that while I have pieces of me that do not change I feel like most of who I am changes every few years as I figure out what I like and who I am. So my answers will apply to me as I am now. The most difficult part of any relationship has been trust. I just have a problem putting my faith in something I can not know for sure. That being said it is not impossible for me to trust someone. It's just that it's hard to gain and easy to lose for me. This does not mean that I haven't myself lost people's trust because of my actions. I just try to be aware of my actions, even to the point of over analyzing my decisions and paralyzing my brain into doing nothing. In sort I am scared of hurting people and being hurt. A second thing I tend to find difficult in a relationship is a conversation topic for every time you are with the person. I tend to have plenty in the beginning and then quickly run out because of over talking. At this point I start to feel like a bore and not worth there time. Then there is the clingy or distant question to which I would say both. I can be clingy at times even overbearing and yet not want to say a word for days. Not sure why that is. In the end I'd say I maybe let my emotions rule my relationships too much and I wish I didn't. As to how i'm trying to fix that? I guess I'll keep thinking on why I do the things I do and learn how to relax more so i can behave naturally. Also maybe therapy if I can ever afford it. :P