ZackV4

That's a good reason to live I guess but you should also live for yourself too nit just other people think about what you want to do and accomplish in your life and push through the hard times and do it.

I mean if you do decide to end it which I don't think you should cause you're honestly a really good dude but if you do then just know I care and I'm sure there are others who do to so if you don't do it then I'm always here if you need to talk.

I don't care who reads this, honestly. I can't find love for anyone or anything anymore. Darkness is taking over and it seem almost like anyone who I truly loved or could help me with stand it is gone forever. If anyone remembers Miyoung, she could. I know she could change this. She was the last person I truly loved. After she left, my heart never found a place with anyone else. My brain says to believe that someone can help, just haven't found that person yet. My heart is arguing, saying I won't last that long. I think my feeling is right... Maybe it's time I let love go on. I get so anxious not knowing what side of me to trust. But myself as one says to forcefully end this feud by making my body suffer. That's how I want to leave. I want to be tortured. I want to regret everything I've done. Even saying so, I still push on for some reason, I don't know why. I guess thanks are in order if you managed to read this with an open mind....