tahyari_chan

guys...im sorry. I know this is the wrong thing to do. and to be posting it for empathy is wrong as well but I think that I should before I take anything to an extreme. I hope u can understand. I'm slowly losing faith in life. I'm not wanting to wake up, shower, or even eat. I'm starting to regret things. I wish I was not alive. things would be better without me. my dreams don't matter because I'm just 1 out of 6milion. I'm nothing. a lot of girls and guys have bullied me day in and day out on my looks. on the way I act and the things I like. I don't even wanna draw anymore...I got sad last night and burned a couple of my art works, most of which are nude or echhi anime art. people always saying "u watch heintai" or ur a looser and way worse. it doesn't help that I'm black because I'm starting to get bullied on my skin color. I don't disserve this. I just wanna put it to a end. I try to annoy it like people say but its getting annoying. I don't wanna do this anymore. I suffered enough. ive been in and out of inpatient and out patient for suicidal ideations (suicide attempts) and nothing helps. it just gets worse. I'm going to accept the fact that i don't disserve to live. i accept that I'm ugly and non attractive. i accept that I'm not funny and not a good artist. but i cant put up with the bulling about it everyday.

boo school ami rite lol. (im gonna get in trouble XD)

:( no one on this site lives in nj :(

so today, the girl I liked, tahya...turns out shes a THOT. I want to die. she dose not like me, shes just thirsty, she told trever today the same thing she told me and he said no and he started making fun of him. that's not cool. also she didn't call because she did not like me at all. or something...why cant I ever get someone normal for once...#fml also my ears hurt lol

Man in college all my friends were emos and weebs in my 2nd year. And 80% of my friends were girls. College is 16-18 in the UK so it's like Americas last years of school. I'm sure if you end up liking this girl then there's no problem, just don't seek out someone who is cute lol