Key

It's the first time in my life that I've ever wanted to just fuck it all, get drunk and forget about everything and everyone. But I just can't bring myself to touch alcohol. Not for me.

Today was a heavy day for me. Yes, I'm finally in Japan. I've got an awesome apartment and awesome plans for how too spend the month. I should be happy and excited... but instead, I feel like complete human garbage. I've just found out what the person who I, until now and for years, though was a really close friend of mine actually thought of me as a person... and it wasn't a love letter. Long story sort, he used his Skype on my phone, forgot to logout, and there it was... all bare for me to see... all that hate towards me. I didn't want to invade his privacy, but I couldn't help but read through all of it once I saw the words "Fuck Max" (that's my name btw), written on my phone's screen while he was happily cracking joking and flashing smiles right in front of me. I'm used to betrayals by now. But this one stung like no other. I'm depressed, angry, confused... I'm at a complete loss. I don't think I'll be forgetting the 26th of March 2015 anytime soon *sad smile*