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joulean

joulean

Male
Single, Straight
Last online 10ヶ月 ago
Fontana, CA
I could come over and watch anime/youtube with you in your depression cave forever. I dont have high expectations, and I won't judge if you are clearly sincere about things. (:

I love staying inside, and becoming an orb of eyes intaking entertainment, warmth, comfort, and pleasantly. I like stories, hearing them, telling them, I like wondering and playing "What-IF"?

I like living life on my own terms, I can change from streaming 18 hours a day - to living on site, and working in "bad" conditions at an off road event in the middle of the desert (for 3 weeks) in one day.

My comfortable place is a with manga and internet, I like to be shut in after exposing myself to the emotional gauntlet of the outside world. I love being in bed after everything.

I CAN be extremely serious and sensible, I can be realistic and down to earth, however I find that that's all work. Not the way I choose to be by my own estimation. It hardly feels natural, and I think that's important to sit and process. I'm a very cerebral and open-minded individual - not to mention intelligent, cool, and modest!!!! (Jk)

I have needs, adult ones! Apparently it sort of flies in the face of the love and affection I like to share/desire. I like to be wholesome, perverted, fun, thrilled... I love life!

I love cute stuff, and sanrio/ghibli. I like kids cartoons at times, I also like adult things, lewd stuff, drinking and gambling! I like serious and scary things, psychedelics and real world history, including the atrocities humans are capable of and systems of oppression.

I like trying new things on my own terms. There's always a "side to me I feel I never get to express.
I'm tired of being misunderstood, or never even considered for opportunities to live experiences I know I would appreciate in a very meaningful and real way.



If I'm being completely candid I would like to meet someone younger than me, conventionally attractive, who also feels misunderstood and is seeking to be themselves with another person who is willing to accept everything they bring - along with their company. If there is anything anyone can just "have" it would be a face that I cannot stay upset at. Looks matter to me mostly because I have a lot going on internally. I struggle with motivation and depression. Thinking of you is what would essentially keep me motivated, and with confidence. Secondly would be our dynamic, what security and uplifting respite I can provide you between us will be healing for me. I have a desire to take care of, and take care for my partner in whatever way that takes shape between US. I find my gestures are considered thoughtful, helpful, or meaningful. I want that Kirito-Asuna switch dynamic, but @ life. That Nezuko-Tanjiro do-anything-for-you-anime-music-playing bond! Maybe a little too much to expect after our first meeting, hm?